Retinal Overload

There is too much going on in my head at the moment. Put music to all of it and I can hardly keep up with my own thoughts. So much of it is negative and so much of it is positive and yet overall it seems to fade back into some giant un-polarised web of images, sounds and emotions. I just read the manifesto at Bansky's website (He did the cover of the last Blur Album - Think Tank) which was the story about the Allied Soldier at Bergen-Belsen who said how sending lipstick as part of the relief effort was a stroke of genius - it gave the inmates a sense of individualism which the incarceration had stolen from them. This started me off on my current internal video show of all the things that are happening in the world. I know reflecting on all these things is pointless. Short of running for Prime Minister or President, there is little any individual can do to make huge differences (and even then, high office seems to remove the altruism which might make some people run for that office in the first place - the only suitable president is someone who does not want to be president). Nothing is difficult. The things we have to do to relieve the largest amount of suffering are the equivalent of binary addition whereas we seem to think that the signs of progress, Rocket Science, Brain Surgery etc are like Calculus, both differential and integral. They are nice to play with but not the solution for saving the world. Nothing ever will be. All that sounds so glib and stupid. There is no solution. There is only transient enjoyment and music and then we all descend into the homogenous mass again. Falling down.